Gary Lazereyes 🍍 @elderbong@icosahedron.website

half the time you talk to people on Reddit selling underwear and videos you're talking to their SOs helping them out while they're at work lmao

Just kill me tbh

Maybe it's for the best, no one should have to deal with my stupid shit

And of course no one replies to my messages, what a glorious support structure I've built

I disgust myself

Sorry I literally only use this for lamentations anymore

Sometimes I wonder if I'd even be happy with myself if I lost weight. Like, maybe the self loathing is too deep for that.

I mean, it is deeper than that, but I don't know if it would even improve at all.

I always mentally and emotionally deteriorate when I'm alone in Friday nights. No motivation to do the schoolwork that normally keeps my mind occupied.

It sucks

I haven't eaten in over 24 hours, cool. And my clothes are falling apart. I'm too broke to take care of either of these things. I also have a huge amount of work and studying to get done.

Can someone just murder me, that'd be great

I have such trouble asking for help that I'd rather go hungry apparently

I only feel comfortable shouting out that I'm not okay if I feel like it's into a void

I need to fucking go back to therapy

I disgust myself

A traditionalist "constitutionalist" weirdo with the name "Robert Lee" just liked and retweeted a tweet of mine in which I mostly just talked shit on Java and I guess he doesn't know what rose emojis in your name mean and didn't read anything else I've tweeted because wow half of it is talking about how much I don't like people like him

You know, the Fallout franchise could be really rad and do a southern fallout where you're completely linearly forced into performing a second march to the sea, it'd only be apt

Death to Nazis, death to fascists, death to the alt-right, and death to all Nazi sympathizers. I'm at my fucking limit with this shit.

So my discrete math professor wants me to learn LogiQL and produce a project in it over a weekend while studying for the final on Wednesday on top of a paper due Wednesday for my technical writing course.

Kill me.

My girlfriend doesn't have health insurance, and even if she bought it she wouldn't be able to afford dental coverage. Her wisdom teeth are beginning to cause pain and I'm really worried, we can't cover the necessary expenses.

Do people here think we'd have a chance of at least covering part of it through crowdfunding? I'm really worried for her...

I already eat like shit and have an awful relationship with food, why did it have to meld with work and school anxiety on this day in particular, I'm a fucking mess